My body is a compass…
I know this to be true, but sometimes I revert to old patterns of not paying attention and making the trip a lot longer and tedious than it needs to be! (I am really starting to despise my OLD patterns!)
Earlier in the week I began to experience some pain in my neck. At first I wrote it off to sleeping too long on one side. But the pain continued. Not only did the pain continue, it got worse and before I knew it moved into my eye socket. One of the therapists at my studio location came to the rescue, “Let me get my hands on you!” She worked on my neck between my classes on Saturday and said to come back for a full session on Monday. I felt immediate relief… but by that evening I was in tears and throwing out “F” bombs like a solider. She worked on me again Monday and while I felt much relief, it opened me up to know that something else was wrong. The next day I headed to the Chiropractor.
He diagnosed it as a C1 rotation and explained how that can cause the eye pain. I always find it interesting how everything in the body is connected. I went on to explain to him that I didn’t do anything to injure my neck. In a very gentle way, he took the time to remind me of “who I am”.
“You are a healer. And while I don’t know your day to day routine, I do know that you are someone who wants to help everyone, usually putting yourself second. (Lump in the throat). You are also growing a small business, which can be stressful. You live your purpose of helping others, but you must not take on their challenges. Do you have a ritual for self-care? And how do you make sure you are not taking on everyone else’s energy and pain?” (Tears)
Our body is a compass… It will guide us and heal us if we follow its cues. I know this. I speak this. So how did I end up here, reverting back to this pattern? I know how. I fell prey to some strong negative energy and I let it grab on. (If I close my eyes right now I can visualize it as a scene from the Blob. Dark goo overtaking me.)
You know what they say, “The enemy is lurking around every corner, waiting for the moment you are vulnerable to take you down!” Even though I knew what I needed to be doing, I let my self-care rituals fall to the “not important column” and I paid dearly. Immediately my thoughts were moving toward doubt, fear and uncertainty. I wasn’t following the compass. My ego took over and I let the important things slide. Oh I was still extremely focused, but I was focused on the wrong things.
Much of the stress and worry we experience day to day, is needless. We conjure things in our mind and before we know it our story changes. Then when the story changes we start to become critical of ourselves thus bringing more stress. And here’s the kicker! We are not alone. It happens to everyone, even the most centered, peaceful and spiritually connected can get overcome. Sometimes it’s an illness where we end up in bed feeling rundown, just so we are forced to rest, but sometimes the scream has to be severe to get us to listen. It might even take a trip to the ER with chest pains.
Learning to listen to the whisper, “Hey, you are heading to a muddy path. You sure you don’t want to follow my compass and go this way?” Why do we ignore the whisper? I hate screams! And then it dawns on me – this is another way we “Tuck the Fringe”. Not listening to our true self.
Do you have a self-care routine or ritual?
After you finish reading this, close your eyes for a moment. Begin to breathe. Taking gentle centering breaths, begin to scan your body for physical and mental distractions. Ask your body, where your energy is today. Repeat to yourself~
I trust the wisdom of my body
I am gentle with myself
My body is a compass
Guiding me to a place a healing and peace