"SNAP OUT OF IT!" I shouted to myself.
The fact of the matter is, there is an ebb and flow to life. Highs and lows. For me it has become a lesson in recognizing the negative patterns I've grown very accustomed to over the years and knowing how to not get stuck. Our minds work this way. They have a deal with the enemy and if we're not careful, we can get completely taken over by destructive thinking. One thought leading to the next and before we know it, we're back in the saddle again of living out those negative patterns. We start playing those old stories in our mind, over and over and over. Boy can I tell some stories!!!! In the past, when I would fall into times of darkness, I began to play the broken record of the why's? and the who's? Immediately going into the chapter where I was the victim of circumstance or someone else's actions. Let me tell you, that get's old really fast. Especially when you've busted through those patterns. When they do come back, it is so uncomfortable and that's a good thing. Discomfort can be the catalyst if we're willing.
The first thing we need to realize is that there will be highs and lows. Our immediate response is to go into the mode of questioning and controlling, trying to fix it or even worse, escape it. In my opinion, that's what our world wants us to do, escape it through materialism and addiction or even falling into the black hole of negativity that surrounds us. You know, the misery love company theory.
The reality is this. We cannot deny the lows, just as we cannot expect to live in the highs all the time. We've got to put on our big girl/boy britches and face our feelings. The more we resist them, the more they will have power over us. When we can accept them as part of who we are, they will lose that power. There is always light after darkness.
So how do you face the dark days and come into the light? Here's what I was drawn to today. As you can imagine, the enemy wanted me to resist my daily routine of prayer and meditation. The whole time I was reading my devotionals, I was distracted. I must have read one passage 20 times before I finally said, out loud, "Enough already!" I grabbed my bolster and blanket. Got down on my mat and put myself in a heart opening pose! I stayed for 20 minutes and breathed myself through the distractions and the resistance. I practiced openly loving myself through the darkness. I chanted silently to myself "I am Love. I am Light" until I found myself moving into the peace and calm of my heart. This is my opportunity to love and care for myself as I would a dear friend who was facing a challenge.
The life lesson of this is that it's a journey of being present in every moment, confident in our own power and connected to our true self!
There is always light after darkness ~