It's no secret that I've spend the majority of my life, Tucking My Fringe, covering up my "self" to accommodate the perceptions and expectations of others. It was almost three years ago that I had a significant awakening on this journey and the phrase Tuck the Fringe became more than something I said in yoga. It became a metaphor for my life. I was tucking my fringe to appease others and to avoid rejection. It is a reoccuring theme in my life and as I've said before, it will be the healing I will tend to the rest of my days.
My journey of self-discovery began in yoga. I had no idea when I began practicing where it would take me. God had such a different plan for me. One I could have never visualized. Teaching has also been a theme in my life. At 16 I was teaching swimming lessons. At 18 I was teaching 6th grade confirmation classes. At 20 teaching water fitness for the Arthritis Foundation and at 24 teaching customer service training. I had forgotten so much of those teaching moments in my life until this past week. Now here I am teaching this journey of self-discovery through yoga and meditation. But it is so much more than that. It is not about me structuring a class that meets the needs of the many. It is about sharing my journey. What is really difficult in that is that it's personal. I feel so at ease and at peace when I'm teaching. I close my eyes and ask Spirit to guide me. But the patterns of people pleasing and tucking myself run deep and often I feel myself reverting back. It's funny how God works, making a teacher out of a people pleaser. It has taken a lot of self discovery to notice what the triggers are that bring about this shift. Now that I am aware, I can see clearly the instances that are being used to deter me. As I read the quote above, I felt this deep knowing that I'm not alone. There are many of us out there that are striving to live what is meaningful, not based on what others think or say. This is my journey. I let go of placing stock in the opinions, criticism and covert aggression of others. When I come from a place of doing what I love that's when I have personal freedom. I bless the part of me that strives to please, knowing it is all part of the process. And I release any power I have given to another person and their opinions of me. I bless them on their journey.
If you are feeling challenged right now or maybe even inadequate, I want you to know that you are not alone! There is personal freedom ahead of you. Love yourself. Love your inner child as you would your son or daughter. Know that loving yourself takes courage unlike any other. It requires a belief and loyalty to true self. Something NO ONE ELSE CAN SEE! Our own self-worth! So when someone begins to tell you how to be or how to do something, do not judge them, for they know not what they speak! They do not know YOU! Only you and God know you! If I could reach out to each of you today and plant this seed in your heart I would. This is why I write this blog. To share my journey and live my truth in hopes that it touches you so we can become a world of mighty companions!