I have come to realize, on this journey of uncovering myself, that I use the word just a lot! I noticed it earlier this year as I was working with my writing coach. Her red pen crossing through weak, meaningless words, such as just. That's when it hit me, I have been using that four letter word as a way to suppress and diminish myself for years. Here's a great example: I caught myself using it in a conversation with one of my teachers. "I'm just a yoga teacher." Immediately I thought, OMG! I can't believe I just said that to Max Strom! I started to backtrack and said, "I'm working on not using that word." He was so gracious as he explained how he responds to people when they ask him what he does for a living. But the conversation left me with the question of why I continue to use that word. Especially when I believe wholeheartedly that I am way more than JUST a yoga teacher.
I'm convinced that it goes back to being raised to be modest and humble. I hadn't looked at that part of me, until this year. My mom told me last year as I wrote, Because I'm Worth It, that she was raised with the mantra that "You're no better than anyone else." I'm sure that the sentiment wasn't that we are all equal. No. It meant, "don't get too big for your britches." This is a generational belief pattern handed down subconsciously. My Mom is a talented artist and designer. Magazine talent! Unfortunately, she lived under the veil of "who does she think she is?" so she suppressed her talent and probably even her dreams. This lead to the habits of over doing and people pleasing. And ultimately, lead me to mimic the same behaviors and never quite feeling like I was enough. Now, that I know I am enough, it's time to show it.
I am 100% confident that the journey of self-discovery is Divinely guided. It begins with the daunting task of letting go of expectations from the outside world and having that "come to Jesus meeting" on the inside. It's taking off the rose colored glasses and looking TO yourself. The self you were. The self you are. The self you are becoming. Accepting all of you! The good. The bad. The ugly. It's tough at times, because we only know what we know and for the majority, it's just too painful to imagine something different. Even when staying the same is painful, our mind tells us it's comfortable there. You never know what's on the other side. I know this all too well, as I've been back and forth too many times to count. Thankfully, I'm willing. I don't want to be JUST something. I want to BE ME!
I know I am at a place in my journey where God has shown me I am ready. I've uncovered myself enough and now it is time to grow and thrive. (In my rough draft, I wrote the words "just enough". I'm a work in progress).
I am NOT JUST a yoga teacher (there are already plenty of those to go around). I am an educator and an influencer. A teacher of self-discovery. I share my journey in an authentic way. I write it and I speak it and my truth attracts journey explorers, so we can share and grow. We are an elite group of explorers! There is no room for JUST on this journey. JUST is a four letter word that weakens and diminishes our authenticity. Letting go of using that four letter word, is letting go of beliefs of lack and limitation.
Be aware of the way you speak. Do you sabotage yourself by using words like "just" or "I think" or "I feel"? I bet if you think about it you can come up with some examples. Here's just a few from me and how a simple word replacement can change the energy of our words.
- "I'm just taking it easy today." Here we diminish that we are deserving of rest. Instead say, "I am staying home to relax, rest and enjoy the comfort of my home. Giving myself time to unplug and recharge because I deserve it."
- "I just called to say hi." Instead say, "I called because you've been on my mind and I miss talking to you."
- "I'm just going to grab a bite to eat." Instead say, "I am enjoying a nice meal and savoring the time to nourish me.
- "I've just been practicing yoga for a few months." Instead say, "I started my yoga practice months ago and I am a yogi! I am convinced it is healing me in so many ways. I am stronger every day!"
"Just my opinion...Ok?"