When I started the process of writing this month’s newsletter, I wrote about “triggers”. Then for the last week a particular theme kept coming up in life and in class. As I sat down to read before bed last night I had an AH HA moment… Peel the Onion. I have no idea why that metaphor came into my head at that moment, but it was strong enough of a thought that I got up and started writing.
When I close my eyes I begin to see the layers of light in each of us. Peeling the layers, “the onion”, is going beneath the surface to deeper truths. This is the process of self-discovery. I don’t believe we are born with these layers. We become a product of the world we live in. Different for each of us based on our life experiences. Some of the heaviest layers may come from trauma. While others may come from our need to shield ourselves from pain. Layer after layer throughout our lifetime. Some are easily removed and others more difficult to peel, coming off in small pieces. With the removal of each layer, we ask why, which can be emotionally overwhelming and painful. Not having the proper tools, we stop peeling and the layers grow back heavier.
When I bring this metaphor onto the mat with me, I see how my yoga practice has helped me to peel the layers, exposing ME. Peeling layers of interpretation, emotion and pain, sometimes exposing more of what I did not wish to see or even acknowledge. It means being real and honest with myself. Self-discovery through the physical practice of yoga has released the physical layers of emotion stored up in my spirit.
Each of us comes to a yoga class for a different reason, but for many it will and does become so much more than the physical asanas. Unexpressed emotions become stored and held in the body and over time, create physical tightness, stress, tension and sometimes pain. Yoga is the perfect way to release emotional tension in the body and to experience the healing that comes with this release. The physical leads to the mind and the Spirit within each of us. The light in our heart that burns always, even under the layers. To get there means that we must peel the layers as painful as it might be, exposing ourselves. The gift at the center, our truest nature. Our connection with the Holy Spirit.
As I close my eyes I see each of us as this image of light, layers and layers of light. I can close my eyes and see everyone in my life in this way. I choose to see the center of the light, your true nature.