About 20 years ago, I used to play a videogame called Small Soldiers. Based on the movie of the same title, it is a strategic game in which the Gorgonites attempt to defeat the corrupt army of small soldiers / toy action figures. With each level of achievement you are awarded more health and ammo to equip you for the next level. At the time I was in a stressful job and this game was an escape. (Too bad I hadn't found yoga yet.) I was so hooked on this game, I even bought the guidebook so I could gain some inside secrets, i.e. cheat codes to attaining more health and knowledge for each level of the game. I was all about achieving the next level. Finally, in the last level you defeat the Small Soldiers and victory is yours.
New Level, New Devil
Life presents itself somewhat like this video game only without the cheat codes. Along life's journey there are many levels. New levels of growth. New levels of challenge. New levels of favor. New levels sometimes bring new devils. In each level of the game I learned what it took to move forward through the challenges. Sometimes a level could take several attempts. If I was defeated and taken back to the beginning of the level, I would do my best to remember where along the path the enemy was waiting for me. In the game, as in life, just about the time you feel like you're in the groove, the level of difficulty goes up. A new set of challenges to learn and grow from. The game has a map that shows you where and when the enemy is approaching. Wouldn't life be easier if we had something like that? Wait! We do; intuition!
So here we are in this game of life, gaining knowledge, learning our purpose and living our truth, playing each level with ease and then from around the corner, BAM! New level, new devil. If you've built up your health levels and stockpiled your ammo, you don't necessarily have to go back to the beginning of the level, you can respawn right where you are applying your knowledge to gain more energy and health to move forward. Just remember, the enemy could be lurking around the next corner, possibly disguised as resistance, insecurities, judgment and old patterns and quite possibly a person you know. Keep your health levels up because it basically comes down to how much you've learned in previous levels and how you can apply that knowledge moving forward.
This Level Rated "C" for Challenging
In the past two weeks, I've had some wonderful God Nods with some amazing earth angels. Each one with a story of overcoming obstacles and creating a life of purpose and inspiring others through their stories. Each story has inspired me to live each day as the best person I can be. I've been moving right along with my mission and feeling like all things are aligning. However, there have also been some subtle hints, we'll call them whispers. "Guard your heart." When I started to look and listen to what was happening around me, I began to realize that three years ago this week I took a major step in removing a narcissist from my life and since then, every year at this time, I have gone through a similar process. Three years ago it was major and if I'm being completely honest, I'm still healing from the emotional wounds. The other times were less traumatic, but all part of the journey. It has made me ponder if the fact that it occurs every year at the same time is part of the lesson. Is this my level and it just so happens that each year at this time, I'm full of the health and knowledge ready to do battle. I say battle as a metaphor because I'm a peaceful person. But it is somewhat like battling or more like protecting myself. Is the universe guiding me each year at this time to the next level and testing my resolve and commitment to MY journey? Will I have the guts to continue forward, or revert back to old patterns of codependency and people pleasing, getting taken down a level or two? Do I really believe in the purpose God has put in my heart? YES! And fortunately, I have a strategic mind. Going backwards, doesn't work for me. I choose to live in the land of plenty where I am enough. I will attract positive people and energy to me and have the courage to remove negative energy and people from my life. I have the choice and I'm confident in my knowledge and level of health. I know that as I move to the next level, some amazing things are waiting for me.
How about you? Are you ready for the next level? Where is your health level and knowledge? Are you questioning or do you feel certain? If you are at a crossroads with someone in your life, it's time to make the decision to move forward. I know it can be difficult, especially if you are a Tuck the Fringe'r like me. With compassion you can let go. Then you can feel good about who you are and your life journey, including the challenges that helped you grow into the person you are today and the person you're uncovering. You're not alone!!! If you feel alone, here is a video to show you that your not.
I'm here to cheer you on!!! You've got this!