This past weekend was the Golden Globe awards. The next morning everyone was talking about Meryl Streep's speech. I didn't watch the show, but I have watched her speech. The most effective thing I believe she said was her final quote from Carrie Fisher, "Take your broken heart and make it into art." Just let that sink in. Say it a few times quietly to yourself.
Let's face it, the world is Tucked! It's not just me or you, it's our society. We have become so good at concealing our emotions that we don't even know how to FEEL anymore. We numb ourselves with all sorts of things, from prescription drugs, alcohol, reality TV, social media and anything else that takes us away from really feeling our emotions. All because it's too difficult. The problem is that we have an innate desire to FEEL, so to quench that desire we turn to the Emotional Porn of TV shows, violent movies, news, politics and social media. The drama of EP numbs us from our own emotions, while stimulating the need to feel...something. Anything. This past political year is a perfect example of emotional porn, on TV and on our computer screen. Why is it that everything is so sensationalized?! Because we need to feel! Unfortunately, we only "feel" when it hits a high boiling point. We crave the intensity of it. So much of what we read and hear has been sensationalized from the actual truth. It is difficult to tell fact from fiction and many people don't care. They have become addicted to the adrenaline rush of a "terrible" story. Ever heard the news term, "If it bleeds it leads"?
Why are we living our reality through sound bites, memes and propagated headlines?
I speak from firsthand experience of being emotionally constipated. I recall the feeling of being so stressed, but not allowing myself to show it. I know the feeling all too well of binge watching reality TV just to make myself FEEL better. I was going through the motions of not living my emotions. That was me, until...
I found yoga and this huge shift began for me. I became more connected to myself and my emotions every time I stepped on my mat. Some days it was so difficult to sit in the discomfort that I wanted to quit and go back to numbing. But there was something pushing me to fight for that deeper knowing and soon I didn't desire the numbness. It wasn't immediate, but over time I noticed that my habits changed when it came to what I exposed myself to. I don't even think it was a conscious choice at first, but I noticed that much of what I had exposed myself to in the past now gave me anxiety. The more I UN-tucked the Fringe, the more sensitive I became to negativity in my life. When I began to live authentically in my own emotions, I didn't need the stimulation of someone else’s.
UN-Tucking myself is a beautiful journey. I struggle every day with making a conscious effort to live my true essence. To be the person God created me to be, not who "you" think I should be. I've interviewed several people through this process and the one thing they all have in common is they choose, no matter what, to live in the acceptance and vulnerability of their emotions. Some days are better than others, but they know living their truth is far more rewarding than numbing it.
I started writing this post 4 weeks ago, and it has taken on several different expressions. I was all ready to post it yesterday and something told me to wait. This morning I read one of my daily reads and I know why I was supposed to wait. I have removed much of what I had written and maybe I will save that for later, but I want to share this with you from Melody Beattie, Journey to the Heart.
Honor your passion by honoring your emotions. Feeling your emotions releases passion into life. Feel them. Feel them all. Then you will know what you like, what instills passion in you. Once you know and can recognize that, you'll know which direction to go. Expressing passion and gratitude will guide your life. Say it again and again. Say it until you believe it. Say it until you live it.
And from Meryl Streep and Carrie Fisher, "Take your broken heart and make it into art."